I WILL ALWAYS BE THANKFUL

I gave you my time.

I gave you my body.

I gave you my sleep.

I gave you my prayers, my tears, my nights, and my days.

There were moments where I felt like I gave you all of me.

Moments when I wondered if there was more of me left to give to you.

And in those moments when I felt like I had nothing left to give, I was reminded what you give to me.

You give me a new perspective, a better way to see the world.

You give me a new look at time. How it is precious, and how each moment counts.

You gave me a new body, one that is strong and powerful and flawed all at once.

You give me a new faith, one that knows I can’t do this life on my own strength.

You give me a new name, "mummy",  one that you say over and over, a name with so much meaning and worth.

You give me a new version of myself, one that is more compassionate, caring, and hopeful then the one before.

So even when I give you my body, time, sleep, days, and night, I know that it is worth it, that its meaningful, that these little moments matter.

That motherhood is full of seasons of giving and moments of receiving.

That even though this is one of the hardest things I have ever done, it is also the best thing I have ever done.

God gave me to you, and you to me, and for that I will always be thankful.

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"I'M FINE" - I JUST LIED

Why didn’t anyone tell me this? Why didn’t anyone say it would be this hard? Why didn’t anyone tell me about the real challenges of motherhood?

I feel like it’s been ages since I got time to post something on my blog. My whole life has changed ever since our baby was born. All I can say is we mothers need God’s mercies every day. The journey from the time I stepped into the labor room has been a challenging one. While healing physically, adjusting to the postpartum hormonal roller coaster, and worrying if my baby is getting enough food, I feel so lost and lonely. Here is something that I read that speaks my heart!

“When a mother says she's tired, that's all she meant!

She did not say she wants to drop her son and forget that he or she exists.

When a mother says she wanted some time alone, just her, that's all she meant!

She didn't say she's sorry to be a mother and that motherhood was a mistake in her life.

When a mother says she needs help to get things done, that's exactly what she meant!

She is not saying that she is incapable.

When a mother makes noodles for dinner, it does not mean she does noodles every day of the week and that her son/daughter is a child who does not know vegetables and meats.

When you arrive at a mother's house and face disorganization, it doesn't mean that every day that house is disorganized.

When a mother says she'd love to go out with her friends, that's all she meant! She doesn't want to go back to being "Single / not a mother" and like it as if she had no responsibility.

When a mother says she's worried and afraid, that's what she meant! She didn't say she's going to falter, and much less she's a coward.

When you listen to a mother screaming, it doesn't mean she just screams, probably she has spoken 300 times with normal voice tone.

When you see a nervous mother, on the edge of madness, doesn't mean every day she's in that situation.

There is a whole context, a whole situation.

Do not invent untruths to judge someone, let alone a woman who every day, at all times, gives up her own life to live the life of another being that she knows is much more important than her.

In the world there is no human being able to give up and donate as much as a mother!

And they deserve a lot of understanding and fewer trials”

Next to “I have read and agreed to the Terms and Conditions”, “I’m fine” is the most often told lie in the English language. I just want to let you know that anyone who is feeling down, I am here for you. to listen, to support and to share this journey with you. Postpartum depression is real! And we will overcome this! Hugs to all moms out there!

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