TIME

GOD - WHEN is MY TIME?

WHY is it that everyone else is getting married?

WHY can't I find a stable relationship?

WHY is everyone else having babies?

WHY aren't things working out for me?

WHY am I not happy?

Ever had those thoughts? I  have! I have had frustrating moments in the past. All I can say is that the more I pondered on it the more it took away my joy.

I love Ecclesiastes 3:8- It says that THERE is a time for EVERYTHING under the sun. So  there's a TIME for – “YOUR TIME” .You cannot make that "TIME" come any faster by complaining, murmuring, being mad at God, your mom, dad, boss or whoever you're placing the blame on for not having what you think you need.

I had given up on finding a husband. I really had. I had reached my saturation point. No more relationships, no more heartbreaks, no more tears. My “TIME” on earth was running very fast. I was getting old and frustrated. I told my parents I am not going to get married. I told God that I give up. At that point of hopelessness, God intervened. Solomon came into my life. I first saw him at a concert; it was a singing competition happening at my work place. There was loud cheering from the crowd. There he was on the stage rapping Eminem’s “Mocking bird” and “When you’re gone”. I was right at the back, cheering along with my friends. At the end of the competition the judges announced, the runners up of the competition goes to “Solomon Xavier”, there he walked and picked up the trophy. Later after few months I saw him performing at another concert. I must admit that I thought he was awesome :)

Solomon performing at a concert

Few weeks later a common friend of ours introduced us to each other. At work, Solomon was this famous singer and I was this girl who played guitar for Christmas carols. So we kind of clicked off well from the beginning. We spoke about school, college, family, friends, music, food, and of course about relationship. Something about each other attracted us to become much more than friends. He took care of me the way my dad did. He was quick to forgive. He came to church with me. We laughed; we sang; we talked; we both knew we liked each other. One evening, we were at a Coffee Café when he asked me if I could marry him. I gladly said, yes. The rush of happiness exploded within me. But yea, it was impossible for us to get together because of so many facts and differences. I asked God if he was the one, if he wasn't I told God to take him away from my life. We fasted, prayed and together were seeking for God’s will and for our parent’s approval. It was a long “TIME” of waiting. I could see God molding us and teaching us lot of patience. It was during that “TIME” when I actually understood of the verse, “Love is patient”. The season of silence from God was the toughest phase. What kept me hanging on was Solomon’s faith and perseverance in marrying me. He encouraged me through all my valley experience when he was going through a season of storm himself. But I lost hope again. I almost gave up. I told God to cancel this wedding if it was not His will. At that point of hopelessness, God intervened. When it was finally “GOD’S TIME” everything just fell in place. Our wedding was fixed by our parents in a miraculous way. We cried with happiness. It was “OUR TIME”. We couldn’t believe what God had done for us.

Ethnic day at work

I learnt that when I give up my on my own strength and rely on God’s strength, He steps in and works wonders. He makes all things beautiful in “HIS TIME”. So get ready for “YOUR TIME”!

And they lived happily ever after...

Post wedding shoot

At the Twin Towers, KL

My sunshine

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SPRINKLE A BIT OF FAITH

I was raised conservatively (and that’s an understatement believe me). I went to Christian schools from kindergarten to college. I could say that I grew up knowing God. It’s only when I was in my 20′s though when I got to know Him on a deeper, more personal level. I used to know Him only in theory, until life became a little dramatic and I felt and understood that theory. God is love, He is nearer when we are heartbroken, He provides our needs, His plans are far better than ours.

Society is brainwashing us into thinking that when we reach a certain age, we need to be married unless we want to be considered as outcasts/rejects/losers. What a silly idea. My faith keeps me from following such folly. My faith prevents me from becoming desperate and hastily jumping into wrong decisions. It teaches me to see my worth not the way the world sees me, but the way the One Who truly knows me does.

10 things about FAITH:

1. Faith allows me to celebrate my friends’ marriages and babies without envy, knowing that God is preparing the best for me.
2. Faith assures me that in my loneliness, in my pain, in my emptiness, God is enough for me.
3. Faith keeps my eyes on the reward and lets me ignore the obstacles along the way.
4. Faith keeps me strong when I’m about to give up and question God’s plans.
5. Faith lets me stand firm despite the discouragement and criticisms thrown at me.
6. Faith allows me to wear a smile on my face like nothing ever happened.
7. Faith also led me to other beautiful people who share the same beliefs and are with me in this journey.
8. Faith makes me whole. My faith completes me. My faith makes my life better, easier and more awesome.
9. Faith keeps me sane in this crazy world.
10. Faith gives me courage and boldness to take the path less traveled.

How much does my faith affect my relationships and relationship status? Big time! It’s not easy, but that’s okay. I’ve got power in my faith. I believe and I trust Him!

I'm going to sprinkle a bit of faith into my world and hope a little magic comes my way

“Faith it till you make it”. I don’t know who came up with that quote but I love it. Basically its saying to keep the faith until the manifestation of God is done. It’s hard to stay faithful when all in the natural feels so hopeless. Giving up is easy, real easy! Anything worth having sometimes requires a fight. Keeping the faith and waiting and allowing God to work things out takes more strength, but it is so worth it in the end. Keeping the faith sometimes means not knowing what the exact outcome will be but you are trusting that God’s will is greater than your own. But as human beings having our own freewill we want things when and how we want them and conforming to other’s will is hard. Which means surrendering to God can be hard too. It’s like, God can you just do it how and when I say do it? Why do I have to wait so long? Why don’t you do it this way and not that way? But thank God that “for my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, says the LORD” (Isaiah 55:8). God knows what is best. Keep the faith regardless of how hopeless you feel the situation you’re facing may be God has it all worked out. “Faith it till you make it!”

Hebrews 11:1- Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

-The praying women

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MY MAKER, MY HUSBAND

Was so encouraged by this passage this week. Thank you Jesus for speaking to me from Isaiah 54.

4 Do not fear, for you will not be ashamed;
do not be discouraged, for you will not suffer disgrace;
for you will forget the shame of your youth,
and the disgrace of your widowhood you will remember no more.
5 For your Maker is your husband,
the Lord of hosts is his name;
the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer,
the God of the whole earth he is called.
6 For the Lord has called you
like a wife forsaken and grieved in spirit,
like the wife of a man’s youth when she is cast off,
says your God.
7 For a brief moment I abandoned you,
but with great compassion I will gather you.
8 In overflowing wrath for a moment
I hid my face from you,
but with everlasting love I will have compassion on you,
says the Lord, your Redeemer.
9 This is like the days of Noah to me:
Just as I swore that the waters of Noah
would never again go over the earth,
so I have sworn that I will not be angry with you
and will not rebuke you.
10 For the mountains may depart
and the hills be removed,
but my steadfast love shall not depart from you,
and my covenant of peace shall not be removed,
says the Lord, who has compassion on you.

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BEING SINGLE

If I were everything God made me to be, you wouldn’t be reading this.

It is hard to be single when everybody around you is not especially when all your friends are getting married and some even have babies. The “big” topic everywhere you go is about being in a relationship or being single.

Sometimes I ask myself if there is a reason I am single. Whatever it is, I am going to fix it so I could finally be "ready" to change my relationship status on Facebook to “married”. I just haven’t met the right person.  It might be the best way God can use my life now. I'm making the most of this season, however long it lasts but I feel it’s much harder to be with somebody who is not part of God's plan for your life. So I should not just haste. Then I read the sentence again…the one that says I’m okay with being single…and realize that it’s not entirely true. I’m supposed to be okay with my singleness. Because clearly, God has me single for a reason. I don’t have a husband right now because I’m not supposed to have a husband. I’m supposed to be content with the life God has given me. Sending His Son to die on a cross for my sins is more than enough reason to celebrate each day I breathe in and out on this earth with reverence, instead of wasting it by waiting for the moment when I will get to join the “Mrs.” community.

I confess that I struggle with being content in my singleness. Yes, I struggle daily.
The good news is that those “single” moments allow me to draw closer to God. I’m reminded to live a life on bended knee and commit to making God’s will my will.

I pray that He develops characteristics in me that my prince charming will say:

She loves God.
She has a beautiful heart.
She is kind.
She is joyful.
She is faithful.
She is gentle.
She can cook (I hope so) :D

God knows me. He knows my struggles. He knows my desires. He labels me “His Child” and will do great things through me if I let Him. Acknowledging that His timing is perfect, I claim Exodus 14:14, “The Lord will fight for you. You need only be still.”

That simple verse gives me hope. Hope that one day, a Godly man will like me enough to put a ring on me.

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WHEN GOD MADE YOU

Right now, at the moment this is the song I'm so crazy about. I'm lyk humming it all day long :) I so wano sing it for that spl one, my prince charming :P :D. I dono where he is and wen I'm gonna meet him . But I believe God will bring him in HIS time. Till then I will be waiting and praticing to sing it fa him :) This song is dedicated to the love of my life!!!(whom I'm yet to meet) :) <3




It's always been a mystery to me
How two hearts can come together
And love can last forever
But now that I have found you, I believe
That a miracle has come
When God sends the perfect one

Now gone are all my questions about why
And I've never been so sure of anything in my life

I wonder what God was thinking
When He created you
I wonder if He knew everything I would need
Because He made all my dreams come true
When God made you
He must have been thinking about me <3

I promise that wherever you may go
Wherever life may lead you
With all my heart I'll be there too
From this moment on I want you to know
I'll let nothing come between us
I'll love what ever you love

He made the sun He made the moon
to harmonise in perfect tune
One can't move without the other
They just have to be together
And that is why I know it's true
You're for me and I'm for you
Cause my world just can't be right
Without you in my life

:) :P :D

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