TIME

GOD - WHEN is MY TIME?

WHY is it that everyone else is getting married?

WHY can't I find a stable relationship?

WHY is everyone else having babies?

WHY aren't things working out for me?

WHY am I not happy?

Ever had those thoughts? I  have! I have had frustrating moments in the past. All I can say is that the more I pondered on it the more it took away my joy.

I love Ecclesiastes 3:8- It says that THERE is a time for EVERYTHING under the sun. So  there's a TIME for – “YOUR TIME” .You cannot make that "TIME" come any faster by complaining, murmuring, being mad at God, your mom, dad, boss or whoever you're placing the blame on for not having what you think you need.

I had given up on finding a husband. I really had. I had reached my saturation point. No more relationships, no more heartbreaks, no more tears. My “TIME” on earth was running very fast. I was getting old and frustrated. I told my parents I am not going to get married. I told God that I give up. At that point of hopelessness, God intervened. Solomon came into my life. I first saw him at a concert; it was a singing competition happening at my work place. There was loud cheering from the crowd. There he was on the stage rapping Eminem’s “Mocking bird” and “When you’re gone”. I was right at the back, cheering along with my friends. At the end of the competition the judges announced, the runners up of the competition goes to “Solomon Xavier”, there he walked and picked up the trophy. Later after few months I saw him performing at another concert. I must admit that I thought he was awesome :)

Solomon performing at a concert

Few weeks later a common friend of ours introduced us to each other. At work, Solomon was this famous singer and I was this girl who played guitar for Christmas carols. So we kind of clicked off well from the beginning. We spoke about school, college, family, friends, music, food, and of course about relationship. Something about each other attracted us to become much more than friends. He took care of me the way my dad did. He was quick to forgive. He came to church with me. We laughed; we sang; we talked; we both knew we liked each other. One evening, we were at a Coffee Café when he asked me if I could marry him. I gladly said, yes. The rush of happiness exploded within me. But yea, it was impossible for us to get together because of so many facts and differences. I asked God if he was the one, if he wasn't I told God to take him away from my life. We fasted, prayed and together were seeking for God’s will and for our parent’s approval. It was a long “TIME” of waiting. I could see God molding us and teaching us lot of patience. It was during that “TIME” when I actually understood of the verse, “Love is patient”. The season of silence from God was the toughest phase. What kept me hanging on was Solomon’s faith and perseverance in marrying me. He encouraged me through all my valley experience when he was going through a season of storm himself. But I lost hope again. I almost gave up. I told God to cancel this wedding if it was not His will. At that point of hopelessness, God intervened. When it was finally “GOD’S TIME” everything just fell in place. Our wedding was fixed by our parents in a miraculous way. We cried with happiness. It was “OUR TIME”. We couldn’t believe what God had done for us.

Ethnic day at work

I learnt that when I give up my on my own strength and rely on God’s strength, He steps in and works wonders. He makes all things beautiful in “HIS TIME”. So get ready for “YOUR TIME”!

And they lived happily ever after...

Post wedding shoot

At the Twin Towers, KL

My sunshine