Friday, November 30, 2018

A DAY TO REMEMBER

It was the day before my sister's wedding. My husband woke me up while I was still sleeping and he said can you do the pee-test? My answer was NO. I don't want to spoil my mood since I had done the pee-test several times before and it was negative. It was a happy atmosphere at home that day. My relatives had all arrived for my sister's wedding and I didn't want to be down and depressed.

My husband and I have been praying for a baby for a while now. But this time something was different. Even before we took the test, he kept telling congratulations the whole month. However, he forced me out of bed that morning. I unwillingly did the pee-test and didn't even bother looking at the result. I was looking out of the window and then I went back to throw the stick. But...wait a min... guess what...It had TWO LINES which means positive. I just couldn't believe my eyes! How could it be? My mind became blank! I went and called my husband and showed him and he started crying! We had been waiting for this for so long. We hugged each other. I told him until I get the blood test, let's wait. We quickly arrived at the clinic and they confirmed that indeed I was pregnant!


God has been so good to us in this painful journey! Solomon and I have cried a lot of times together. When everyone else around us had babies, we felt heartbroken. We prayed to God every night.  Needless to say, those were some really dark days. But looking back, something that could have torn us apart became our biggest strength. We clung together for strength and for understanding. We asked God for help and depended on Him like never before. God is a God who hears and answers our prayers. God indeed showed His mercy on us. I strongly believe that there is a purpose behind every pain.

God showed me a few reasons why we had to undergo this journey:

1. So that we depend on God and He gets the glory
2. So that we encourage and empathy others going through this journey
3. So that we value the child and not take this gift lightly
4. So that we get closer to Him and close to each other.
5. So that we testify His miracle-working power.

Every sequence of that day is fresh in our memories. Ever since that day till now whomever, we shared it with had rejoiced with us.

It is a day to remember all our lives!

I would like to encourage whoever reads this post. Whatever may be your problem, God is able to do the impossible. Keep praying, keep trusting, you will have a day to remember too!


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Tuesday, September 11, 2018

BLOWN AWAY BY GOD

Sometimes God just blows you away with surprises. It unimaginable and amazing how God plans the timeline of your life and how He fulfills your hearts desires and dreams.

One of my cousins asked me that what my dreams were and if they have been fulfilled. As I began to think about it, I was amazed at the timeline in which God has been fulfilling my dreams and wishlists.

Looking back, these were few of my dreams, desires, wishes and silent prayers:

THE SHIP
I always wanted to serve God onboard the ship, Logos Hope. God miraculously gave me an opportunity to live on the ship for 3 months and meet so many people around the world. I was blown away when my boss gave me leave for 3 months. Plus, I got godly friends as a bonus on the ship.

TRAVEL ABROAD
I love visiting different countries but I knew it was impossible. But God was so good to me that He blew me away by taking me to Denmark, Sweden, Holland, Germany, Dubai, Sharjah, Doha, Malaysia, and Sri Lanka. I asked God for one country but He took me to 9 for which I’m so grateful.

LOVING HUSBAND
Like all girls dream about their future husband, I wanted to have a husband just like my dad. It unbelievable how many similarities Solomon and my dad have. I'm just blown away by the way they love me, take care of me and the similar way they react to my tantrums.

WRITE BOOK
My dream was to write books and encourage people through my stories. It was impossible since I always felt insecure about my writing skills. But last year God was gracious to me and helped me to release my first book for which I’m blown away.

DESIGNER
They say that everyone should love what they do. I’m passionate about designing (clothes, interiors, and web). I’m so happy that I work as a web designer. I’m blown away that what I studied is what I became and what I work. God gave me the exact job that I love.

HOME
Growing up, beautiful home interiors have fascinated me. When we renovated our house, I could implement a few designs that I have admired. Making my house a home of my dream was one of my cherished moment. I was blown away by God’s financial providence.

Not all these were fulfilled according to my timetable. Deep down in my heart, these were my dreams, desires, wishes and silent prayers. Although the waiting time was so hard, God’s timing was perfect. When I ponder on why God let me wait so long, I'm just blown away. He does all things beautiful in His time. His ways are just beyond PERFECT!

Are you waiting for God to do something in your life? Be ready to be blown away by His goodness!



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Friday, August 3, 2018

100 BILLION X

This is my latest favorite song. I have been listening to it a hundred billion times. I'm in love with the lyrics. Hope it blesses you as it blessed me.


God of creation
There at the start
Before the beginning of time
With no point of reference
You spoke to the dark
And fleshed out the wonder of light

And as You speak
A hundred billion galaxies are born
In the vapor of Your breath, the planets form
If the stars were made to worship so will I
I can see Your heart in everything You’ve made
Every burning star
A signal fire of grace
If creation sings Your praises so will I

God of Your promise
You don’t speak in vain
No syllable empty or void
For once You have spoken
All nature and science
Follow the sound of Your voice

And as You speak
A hundred billion creatures catch Your breath
Evolving in pursuit of what You said
If it all reveals Your nature so will I
I can see Your heart in everything You say
Every painted sky
A canvas of Your grace
If creation still obeys You so will I

If the stars were made to worship so will I
If the mountains bow in reverence so will I
If the oceans roar Your greatness so will I
For if everything exists to lift You high so will I
If the wind goes where You send it so will I
If the rocks cry out in silence so will I
If the sum of all our praises still falls shy
Then we’ll sing again a hundred billion times


God of salvation
You chased down my heart
Through all of my failure and pride
On a hill You created
The light of the world
Abandoned in darkness to die

And as You speak
A hundred billion failures disappear
Where You lost Your life so I could find it here
If You left the grave behind You so will I
I can see Your heart in everything You’ve done
Every part designed in a work of art called love
If You gladly chose surrender so will I
I can see Your heart
Eight billion different ways
Every precious one
A child You died to save
If You gave Your life to love them so will I

Like You would again a hundred billion times
But what measure could amount to Your desire
You’re the One who never leaves the one behind

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Friday, July 27, 2018

THANK YOU FOR PRAYING FOR ME

I know it been a while since I posted anything. I have been so so so in awe of what God has been doing in my life. My heart is so full. My eyes are swelled with happy tears. I have no words to express how good God has been to me.

I have had many posts about God being silent, my failing health condition and when prayers are unanswered. But this post is going to be about God who actually answers prayers. Yes, I have never experienced God so real in my life. He actually hears every single prayer and He answers in His time and according to His will.

As some of you know that we have been praying for months together for my ill health. I had been to the hospital several times with bad reports but this time, the doctor said I'm perfectly fine! God miraculously answered my prayers. When God does it, He does so perfectly. To Him be all glory!

After I shared it with few of my family members and friends, they told me how much they prayed for my health condition.

Here is the list I made about a few people who told me they prayed for me:

- My dad and mom - Dad's every day constant prayer
- Solo - He kept congratulating me that my health was fine even before I got the health report
- Glory - She told me I will get a breakthrough before she gets married (it actually happened)
- My fil & mil - My fil was constantly praying for me and my mil too went for a retreat and prayed.
- Serah - She told me that she had a dream that my breakthrough will happen on 25th December
- Sushma Akka - She was more confident than I was that my prayers will be answered.
- Persis & Vittal - They called and prayed over the phone for me on the last day of fasting.
- Freeda & Charles - They told me they were praying for me in their family prayer
- Hannah - Was constantly praying for my health condition
- Bency - Was constantly praying for my health condition
- Ravi uncle & aunty - They said there were fervently praying for my health
- Sangee & aunty - They said there were fervently praying for me
- Rosy aunty - She said she was praying for my health
- Sukanya aunty - She said she was praying for my health
- Pinky Akka - She said she was praying for my health
- Dodamma (Mom's sister) - She said she was praying for my health
- Jeeva aunty - She said she was praying for my health
- Abi - He said he was praying for my health
-Many unnamed friends...
- And so many of my friends who said, "Grace, I really wish you get well." or "I have been praying for you"

I am so thankful that so many people prayed for me. Dedicating this wonderful song called "Somebody's Praying For Me"  by Don Moen!

I was lost in a desert land 
So dry and thirsty 
But God was there where He’d always been 
Giving grace and mercy

So hard to sing and hard to pray 
Yet I knew His Word was true 
And then one day my faith returned 
And suddenly I knew

Somebody’s praying for me 
Somebody’s knocking on Heaven’s door 
Somebody’s praying for me 
Somebody’s lifting me up to the Lord 
I knew it had to be 
Somebody down on their knees 
Somebody praying for me

I’ve been spared by so many prayers 
How many times I could not say 
What a difference a prayer can make 
When it’s offered up in faith

God has always made a way 
When I didn’t know what to do 
Just when I needed a miracle 
That’s when your prayers broke through

Somebody’s praying for me 
Somebody’s knocking on Heaven’s door 
Somebody’s praying for me 
Somebody’s lifting me up to the Lord 
Well I knew it had to be 
Somebody down on their knees 
Somebody praying for me

Now I know that friend was you 
You were the gift God gave me 
’Cuz when you prayed His love broke through 
It was your prayer that saved me

Thank you for praying for me 
Thank you for knocking on Heaven’s door 
Thank you for praying for me 
Thank you for lifting me up to the Lord 
Now I can clearly see 
That you were the one on your knees 
So thank you for praying for me

Somebody’s praying for me 
Somebody’s knocking on Heaven’s door 
Somebody’s praying for me 
Somebody’s lifting me up to the Lord 
Well I knew it had to be 
Somebody down on their knees 
Somebody praying for me


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Thursday, July 26, 2018

MIRACLES HAPPEN

I prayed for you
Yes I cried my lungs out
Nights after nights
Days after days
Weeks after weeks
Months after months
I was desperate for you
Persevered
Hoped when everything failed
Hung on to faith
Sank in tears
You were my only wish
I longed for you
As hungry as I was
Went through suffering
Shame and insult
When suddenly
God stepped in
Unexpected
You arrived
You finally did
When least expected
Should I cry
Should I dance
What should I do
I’m unable to react
What state of mind is this
No one thought me in school
I’m emotionless
Where did pain go
I had it so long
I feel light
It still can’t sink in
You are here
It’s real
Dreams come true
Miracles happen

- Grace Xavier


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Friday, July 13, 2018

SOMEWHERE IN BETWEEN

What I used to be
Somewhere in between
What I am
Somewhere in between
What I want to be
Somewhere in between

What is past
Somewhere in between
What is present
Somewhere in between
What is the future
Somewhere in between

What is real
Somewhere in between
What is happening
Somewhere in between
What is a dream
Somewhere in between

- Grace Xavier


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Tuesday, June 26, 2018

PLEASE COME BACK

It’s past midnight
I suddenly wake up
My hands feel your pillow
It’s empty
You are not here
I grope in darkness
feel alone
Wind blows
It’s dark outside
An empty house
I can’t sleep
The sheets smell like you
I told you not to leave me
You promised you would stay
I need you
To hold me tight
Cuddle me to back sleep
In your arms
Is the place of peace
I’m waiting
Restless
Anxious
I miss you
Please come back

- Grace Xavier


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Sunday, June 24, 2018

SILENCE

Two cute faces 

Two desperate hearts

One intimate kiss

Is it love or lust

Silence between them

told the story


- Grace Xavier




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