Thursday, July 26, 2018

MIRACLES HAPPEN

I prayed for you
Yes I cried my lungs out
Nights after nights
Days after days
Weeks after weeks
Months after months
I was desperate for you
Persevered
Hoped when everything failed
Hung on to faith
Sank in tears
You were my only wish
I longed for you
As hungry as I was
Went through suffering
Shame and insult
When suddenly
God stepped in
Unexpected
You arrived
You finally did
When least expected
Should I cry
Should I dance
What should I do
I’m unable to react
What state of mind is this
No one thought me in school
I’m emotionless
Where did pain go
I had it so long
I feel light
It still can’t sink in
You are here
It’s real
Dreams come true
Miracles happen

- Grace Xavier


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Friday, July 13, 2018

SOMEWHERE IN BETWEEN

What I used to be
Somewhere in between
What I am
Somewhere in between
What I want to be
Somewhere in between

What is past
Somewhere in between
What is present
Somewhere in between
What is the future
Somewhere in between

What is real
Somewhere in between
What is happening
Somewhere in between
What is a dream
Somewhere in between

- Grace Xavier


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Tuesday, June 26, 2018

PLEASE COME BACK

It’s past midnight
I suddenly wake up
My hands feel your pillow
It’s empty
You are not here
I grope in darkness
feel alone
Wind blows
It’s dark outside
An empty house
I can’t sleep
The sheets smell like you
I told you not to leave me
You promised you would stay
I need you
To hold me tight
Cuddle me to back sleep
In your arms
Is the place of peace
I’m waiting
Restless
Anxious
I miss you
Please come back

- Grace Xavier


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Sunday, June 24, 2018

SILENCE

Two cute faces 

Two desperate hearts

One intimate kiss

Is it love or lust

Silence between them

told the story


- Grace Xavier




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Saturday, May 26, 2018

THE LUCKY ONES

Recently I saw one of the most beautiful wonderful audition on Britain's Got Talent 2018. It was a cute father-and-son duo singing their original song, "The Lucky Ones". To be honest, I couldn't hold back tears when I heard the song, the lyrics and saw the love between the two. Here is the video of the full audition. Hope you enjoy it.


Lay your head on me, as I fall to sleep
Put your arms around mine. Stay here by my side

We’re the lucky ones. Only just begun
Others leave too young. We’re the lucky ones

’till your eyes can see, I’ll be all you need
Put your hands in mine. Stay here by my side

We’re the lucky ones. Only just begun
Others leave too young. We’re the lucky ones

Promise me no matter how the years change us
You’re perfectly and perfect, just how you were meant to be

And all through our lives, I’ll be yours
Say you will be mine

We’re the lucky ones. Only just begun
Others leave too young

But we are the lucky ones
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Saturday, May 12, 2018

10 THINGS I LEARNT LIVING WITHOUT A CELL PHONE

Have you ever lost your phone? Well, recently I did lose mine and just couldn’t track it. I was a bit low as it was gifted by my husband for my birthday. Nevertheless, I applied for a duplicate sim but it took forever to actually get it to work. While waiting for a new phone and a sim I was without a phone for few days.

Before this productivity experiment, my smartphone was like a leech, so interwoven into my life that I couldn’t dream of living without it. While cell phones are one of the best inventions, I’ve grabbed something different, amazing and interesting for you about my experience without a phone.



10 things I learnt living without a cell phone:

1. Time

Most often I am busy and often complain about not having enough time to do anything. A few minutes of playing a game and a few minutes checking the weather, news, social media or email adds up to several hours a week. Not having my phone gave me so much of time to tick off from my to-do list. You won’t believe how productive you could be at work too!

2. Self-control

Not having my phone made me realise that I don’t have to take a picture of every damn thing and upload on social media. I began to think that there should be some kind of limit or self-control from the social media addiction that I have especially from just swiping those zillion pictures on Instagram, Facebook or from my own gallery.

3. Peace

Generally I get so disturbed when I see some images and read some sad news on social media. It would make me so depressed and stressed. Not having my phone gave me so much of peace that I was indeed less stressed than I normally am.

4. Respect people

Not having a phone made me realise how disrespectful and ignorant it is to fiddle with your phone in company of people. When I noticed that while talking to some and they were fiddling with their phones, sadly I realised I have done that many times too.

5. Missed nothing

It's actually weird but I have to admit that I didn’t miss anything. The people who needed to reach me found a way. I don’t need to be available all the time on whats-app or emails. If I am offline on social media, the world wont come crashing down. After all I realised that I’m not that important :)

6. Relief

I used to worry about losing my expensive smartphone all the time. So I’d often check my pocket to see if it was still there. Now it wasn’t. Every time I acknowledged that, I felt a sense of freedom and relief. Definitely, one thing less to worry about.

7. Contentment

Sometimes it seems like people(not everyone) tend to show off a bit on social media. If someone has got something better than what I have and they upload a picture on social media. I see it and I tend to long for it and dream about it and eventually end up being discontent with what I have. Not being on social media made me content by not desiring things that I don't have.

8. Happy

It might sound weird that I was actually happy not to have a phone. It’s something like a big heavy weight had been taken off from me. I was definitely not worried at all about anything. The news, the media, the mails – nothing to worry about!

9. First things

First thing in the morning I tend to do after I wake up is to check my phone and the last thing I do before going to bed was the same. When I didn’t have my phone, I picked up the Bible as the first thing when I woke up. Phones can be a huge distraction while reading the Bible.

10. Sleep

Sometimes when I wake up in the middle of the night, I tend to fiddle my phone and loose out on sleep. It used to give me a headache the next morning. To be honest, without my phone I was able to sleep better.

Conclusion:

No no no, I’m not saying everyone to stop using your phone but I invite you to conduct your own experiment. Hide your phone for a day and see what happens. The goal is not to get rid of your phone forever, but to see what you learn from not having one for a while.

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Wednesday, April 25, 2018

HIS PROMISE STILL STANDS

“Not one of all the Lord’s good promises to Israel failed;
everyone was fulfilled”
-Joshua 21:45

Whattttttt? Reaaallllly? When I read this verse, something within me just lifted my spirit. Can you believe that every promise God made to Israel was fulfilled? I am so happy that there is a promise like this promise!

Every time I listen to the song- “Do it again” by Elevation Worship, one line in the song goes on to say, “Your promise still stands, great is your faithfulness…” I question myself, “Do you believe that God is faithful to bring about those promises in your life? Do you believe the promise still stands?”




And that’s when I realized, part of me had stopped believing and trusting in God’s faithfulness and promises in my life. The promises God had spoken over my life seemed impossible to me so I had conveniently tucked them away.

The past one month has been a journey where God has been pushing me to rejoice in His promise- to rejoice like one who finds a great treasure, to get excited for what he is going to do because he is a faithful God. I actually have been at rest after a very long time.

Like the psalmist says, “I rejoice in your promise like one who finds great treasure”- Psalms 119:162, I want to rejoice in the promises of God.

God has probably spoken something into your life and it may seem impossible when you look at it today. But remember, God is faithful and He is a God of the impossible.

Leaving behind this verse for you: “For no matter how many promises God has made, they are ‘Yes’ in Christ.” (2 Corinthians1:20)

God’s promise still stands! Do you believe it?

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Sunday, March 11, 2018

I WANT TO DIE

"God, enough is enough!" Have you ever felt that way? When life hits hard some of us feel like giving up on living. Whether due to physical pain, disease, emotional struggles, or relational problems, it is easy to become frustrated with life and wish for something different. Sometimes when I tell my friends the experiences of my life, I tell them I was so depressed that I wanted to die and they say that they have also had that thought when faced with extremely painful situations. How do we deal with “what to die” situations?

We read some cases of Prophets in the Bible who also have had a desire to die.

1. JONAH

In Jonah 4:10-11, we read how Jonah sat outside the city to await God's judgement upon the people of Nineveh. When it did not happen, Jonah was upset and wanted to die. Not the best example to follow.

Jonah was so self centred on his situation that he did not think about the whole town returning to God. Sometimes when we are self-centred and not God-centred we might miss our focus. Nevertheless God was not angry with Him, in fact God spoke to Him.

Takeaway point: God can speak to you even when you are depressed!

2. JOB

Job was one person who went through the toughest time in his life. Although he was a good man, he had a terrible disease, his children were dead, his wife told him to curse God and his friends blamed him. In such time Job says, “What strength do I have, that I should still hope? I have nothing to live for. I don’t have strength to prolong my life.”(Job 6:11). In other words Job wanted to die.

Then Job said, “Though God slays me, I will trust Him. Blessed be His name. God, I am broken inside this doesn’t make any sense, I don’t have any other hope, but I am going to hope in you”. In the end of the story we see that God restored double of everything in Job’s life.

Takeaway point: Trust God when your current situation makes no sense!

3. ELIJAH

We read of how Elijah had done a big miracle and Jezebel wanted to kill him and he was running in the wilderness. He sat down and prayed that he might die. “I have had enough, Lord,” he said. “Take my life; I am no better than my ancestors.”( 1 Kings 19:4)

God then sent an angel to provide him some cakes and water twice. Elijah was then strengthened by that food, and he continued his journey to the mountain of God.

Takeaway point: Even in the wilderness, God wants to strengthen you!

4.  MOSES

 When Moses was leading the people of Israel from Egypt to the promise land, the people started grumbling and complaining against Moses. Every family then started wailing at the entrance of their tents. Moses was troubled and told God, “If you are going to treat me like this, please kill me right now if I have found favour with you, and don't let me see my misery anymore.” (Numbers 11:15)

Later we read that Moses prayed, worshipped and kept going. Of course, God did many miracles and heard Moses’ plea on behalf of the people.

Takeaway point: When life hits hard, get up, dust off, worship God and keep going!

If you are in a dark phase of your life, I urge that you cry out to God saying, “God, this doesn’t make sense, I am hurt, I am broken, I don’t have another hope so I’m gonna hold on to you, I’m gonna trust you. Even though my heart is breaking, I believe your word for my current circumstance. I’m not moving from what You told You will do in my life. I’m holding on to Your promises. I know you are in control. I belong to you. Let Your will be done!". When you pray such prayers, God will give you peace in the midst of the storm.

I hope this blog encourages you. And if at all we have ever prayed, God let me die and He did hear our prayer, no one would be alive on earth!  Sometimes it’s better God doesn’t answer our silly prayers! :)

Pray when everything else fails

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