I have been asking God what I should ponder on this
year. God has been lately dealing with
me through brokenness. He is reminding me to be a broken person so that He can use me.
Sometime life can just break you into pieces. Brokenness
– quite the word! It brings such thoughts of painful situations. Our personal lives often
have multiple themes of brokenness happening at once or sometimes on a daily
basis. I’m learning that brokenness is a process where I need to be broken
until I have reached the point where I have totally crucified my so called
“SELF”. Dad often says the simple definition of Brokenness is “Not my will but Gods’ ”! The "I" in me should die!
3 THINGS BROKENNESS HAS DONE TO ME:
MADE ME MORE HUMBLE
Brokenness has exposed my pride. While being unbroken, I
sometimes tend to venture on my own like I can manage everything on my own. God
reminded me that I can’t do ANYTHING without Him. Without Him I am NOTHING. He had to bring me to ZERO. I needed to repent,
fall on my face and ask God for His grace. It’s in my pain and hurt and failing
that I remember His goodness and love. When I am broken, God can shine on me!
To pick me up, to dust me off and to become a source of hope for others who are
broken like me.
GIVEN ME NEW STRENGTH
In order to use men and women to their fullest extent, God had
to break His servants so that they might have a new kind of strength. It is
Strength in SPIRIT that is born only through Brokenness. It’s in my weakness
that He is made strong. I’m nowhere near complete, but I refuse to stop in the
middle of the process. I will run the race to completion – in my
marriage, my family and place of work. With God’s strength I will run and not
look back. I will press on and embrace the future hope and plans that God has
for me.
DRAWN ME CLOSER TO GOD
It’s never fun walking through the fire, being in the storm,
stumbling in the darkness…yet, in the midst of the brokenness I can hear God –
I feel His presence and I know that He is with me through the pain. Brokenness
hurts, brokenness disrupts and brokenness often involves painful memories,
hurtful scars and deep anguish. But God will not leave, He will not forsake,
and He promises to make beauty out of ashes. I have experienced this, and
continue to experience it, first-hand and God will do the same for you!
God reminded me this verse by the Psalmist:
God reminded me this verse by the Psalmist:
“The sacrifice You
desire is a broken spirit. You will not reject a broken and repentant heart, O
God.” Psalm 51:17
Brokenness is not just for one day but I want it to become a
life style. My heart’s desire this year is to be a broken person. May
2016 be the "YEAR OF BROKENNESS".